When we think of the act of purging, I believe most people immediately go to the negative definitions, such as purging good people from a corrupt system or organisation so it can commit bad acts with impunity or purging food from your body in a vain attempt to lose weight or keep weight off. (AsContinue reading “Purging Can Be an Act of Self-Care”
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Not Change, Restoration
I’m having the best day I’ve had in ages. Weeks. Maybe even months. Definitely not years, but probably months. And I have no idea why. I wish I knew, because if I could figure it out then perhaps I could replicate it consistently. One day, maybe I will figure it out. But for now, IContinue reading “Not Change, Restoration”
Straining Credulity
I never got around to watching the final season of The Strain so I’m rewatching it from the beginning on Disney+, a streaming service that started strong and is already threatening to overtake Netflix and Prime with its dazzling and ever-expanding array of worthwhile content. I remember back in 2014 that as much as IContinue reading “Straining Credulity”
You Can’t Miss Someone Else’s Life
I started to go down on 7 January, I went fully under somewhere in the weeks that followed, and I haven’t come back up since. That’s four months and counting, gone. Lost forever. Never coming back. Like most of my life so far. I’ve stopped doing everything I was doing. Everything I wanted to doContinue reading “You Can’t Miss Someone Else’s Life”
Why I’m Borderline Fucking Insane
Just another day in the place I’ve been forced to live for almost two decades since I had a nervous breakdown and couldn’t work full-time any more. I’m in the kitchen, minding my own business, just preparing my pre-workout meal, and Mum comes in, starts checking how much liquid can fit into different sized mugs.Continue reading “Why I’m Borderline Fucking Insane”
The Tsunami Sweeps In
As a long-term sufferer of depression, I’ve used a lot of metaphors to try to describe a state of being that people who have never experienced it simply cannot comprehend. I’m glad they can’t. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. Well, hardly anyone. Usually the metaphors involve a force far greater than myself, an essentialContinue reading “The Tsunami Sweeps In”
One Problem at a Time
Although the lack of new posts might suggest that it’s time to try Plan C, in actual fact I’ve been writing every single day… this is no less than Day 12! So Plan B is working, I just ended up doing what I normally do: turning something that should be quick and simple into somethingContinue reading “One Problem at a Time”
Back to the Drawing Board, or Just Back?
Well, it’s been nearly a month since I posted. Does that mean Plan B is out and it’s time to think up Plan C? Not just yet. The reason why I’ve been out of action for nearly a month is very simple; I took a sabbatical from my newfound life of enjoyment and abundance, andContinue reading “Back to the Drawing Board, or Just Back?”
Change of Plans
Well, I think it’s fair to say that things are not working out exactly as planned. I’m not declaring this a failure – not by any stretch of the imagination – but I’m not exactly publishing and posting regularly. That isn’t to say that I haven’t been writing at all; I have the next fiveContinue reading “Change of Plans”
Bring on 2021!
Well, the weirdest year in a century is almost over, 2020 we are nearly done with you! A terrible year for many (over 1.8 million were taken by coronavirus and didn’t even live to see the end of it), I’m one of the lucky ones. For me, it started off bad as usual, quickly degeneratedContinue reading “Bring on 2021!”
Musings from the Imaginarium 